Tonight's exercise was Refresh and Recharge. I was distracted throughout almost the entire session by pervasive itching. Not funny. I probably need to vacuum and clean the couch downstairs. The combination of pet hair, itty bitty bugs, and whatever children bring into the house is probably contributing to my discomfort.
That being said... I never really slipped into a good Focus 10 tonight. In fact, the distractions prevented me from really letting go, mentally. I never really let go of the physical state. Despite this, the exercise did successfully guide me through the perception of several fears, associated emotions, and associated memories. In past sessions of this type, I found it difficult to perceive more than one fear (of the three they guide you through). Not tonight. There were three interrelated fears that I needed resolved and converted into beneficial energy. They all tied back to the same associated emotions, but very different trigger events and memories. The last fear was very unexpected. I don't think that I ever really allowed myself to consciously acknowledge it. I was somewhat hesitant to let it go... not sure why. But let it go I did. And with it, the associated emotions. I am taking the next few steps toward improvement.
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