Into Focus 10

Tonight I did Discovery III - Advanced Focus 10. I moved to the couch downstairs in the living room. It's much more comfortable for me to be prone and do these exercises than the one upstairs. It also has an ottoman that I can rest my arm on. About 2/3 through this exercise, my cat decided to curl up on that arm, which was distracting.

I was reintroduced to the Resonant Energy Balloon (REBAL) this evening. The REBAL is a cocoon of my own energy that wraps around my body like a shell. I form my REBAL by collecting energy up into my head through resonant tuning, then directing that energy out of my head like a fountain and down around my body to re-enter through my feet. Because the energy is not something that can be sensed with the physical five senses, much of this is a pure mental exercise. Objectively, I have not yet found a way to verify that the exercise of producing a REBAL actually does anything. Subjectively, all I can really do at this point is press the "I believe" button and trust that the process is working. While this is adequate for now, at some point I have a deep seated need to have more concrete verification that the REBAL is an actual manifestation of my energy.

I have worked with the REBAL exercise on and off for almost two years now. With varying degrees of success. This evening produced a new and somewhat interesting sensation: As I was directing my REBAL down and around my body in a spiral, I suddenly had this mental visualization of energy swirling around me like a vortex. My expectation up until this point was that my REBAL energy was smooth and slow turning. So to have a visualization of my REBAL as this corded energy churning around me, looking a lot like cords of water in a whirlpool, if you take those cords out of the water and turn them into energy, was unexpected. The rate at which the energy turned was also surprising. The churn rate was quite fast, nothing at all like the slow, smooth image that I had always envisioned. I can still replay the imagery now in my head as I type.

I felt a profound reassurance at the fact that my REBAL is strong enough to completely contain and focus my energy inside of it. It not only protects my energy from outside influences, it provides me with complete control over how and where I choose to direct my energy. I need to actively practice forming and reabsorbing my REBAL in the C1 state.

The transition into Focus 10 tonight was less interesting. I think that I carried with myself the expectation that shifting from C1 into Focus 10 was going to produce a very state of mental awareness. I think that subsconsciously dwelling on this preconception prohibited me from really moving fully into Focus 10. I noticed that my breathing, while shallow, was more rapid than usual for these exercises. The fact that I noticed my breathing at all tells me that I need to let go of my preconceptions and just trust the process.